I’ve been meaning to write more. I’ve been writing a bit more in my journal, and still sometimes write on my other blog. I was gonna write this on my other blog, but maybe it’s time to revive stuff here. Don’t really know what the point of it is, but whatever. Will update the photoblog soon also.
But anyways, I realized this year I have a probem. If you look in my room it’s filled with bikes. I spend all my [parent’s] money on bike shit and often cut my budget on basic things like food to fuel my insatiable desire for bike stuff.
Earlier this year…like about 3 months ago, I saw a bike for sale: an Eddy Merckx Mx-Leader. I always regarded it as one of my dream bikes and it was at a price that was somewhat obtainable for me. So I freaked out. Felt antsy. Had to have it. Immediately listed any parts I had lying around to get the funds necessary to buy it. (sold my 7400 group and superstar cog among other things)
Soon after I saw that frame for sale I was supposed to go on a double date with Serena and Jean and Phil. The whole time I was kinda quiet…was feeling antsy and anxious still about the bike. We got to the restaurant and when it came time to order, I just stared at my menu. I honestly didn’t want to order because I didn’t want to spend any money so I could have money to get that frame. I told them that. Serena said she’d pay for me. And she did…haha I’m such a gentleman… :|
I have always been kinda against consumerism. Like, whenever people buy a shit ton of clothes or buy things [seemingly to] just to show off, I always scoff from my pedestal of self-righteousness. Like I remember InterVarsity had a 21 day challenge where you only are allowed to use 21 articles of clothing for 21 days, it was so easy for me. I remember people talking about how they had their eyes opened of how much they actually cared about material things and I thought to myself I didn’t have that problem. But I do. if it was a 21 day challenge where I had to only use 1 bike I’d probably have a lot more trouble than anyone else in IV. hahahaha
I’m writing about this now because 2 days ago I found a bike for my housemate Nathan to get. He asked me to help him look for a bike to get and I found this bike that was a ridiculously good deal, and was his size. 250 for a top of the line Specialized from 1995 ish (full 8sp Dura Ace!). He seemed really on board to get it but then backed out at the last minute.
It was a really good deal. I was starting to want it for myself today. I was thinking of all the possibilities if I had the parts from that bike. Thinking it’s suuuuuuuuuuuch a good deal, so I can’t let it go… I could hardly sit still in class today cause I was thinking about it so much.
It’s a real problem.
I thought about it a bit more and kinda got to the point where I realized that me buying more shit doesn’t really make me that much happier and doesn’t really fulfill a need. I might be excited for a little bit when I first get the bike….but after a day it’s just whatevers and I’m on to the next great deal I find on craigslist (it’s almost like drugs). And…..I have more bikes than necessary…and already have 2 road bikes (which is the type of bike I was so antsy to try to find a way to get).
I’m still working on it, but I guess I just gotta break the cycle and stop (especially when my money is all just given to me!). It’s not the end of the world if a great deal is let go…and in the end I guess it’s not worth embarrassing my date or just letting little stupid things ruin my day.
Yeah… this is random and probably a bit embarrassing but oh wells.
Thank you Ace for encouraging us to keep going. We crossed paths on some of our toughest days.
and 5:42 for anyone who’s interested, but listen to the other stories as well.
A couple weeks ago, my housemates had a thanksgiving gathering and the girls wanted to have everyone write what they were thankful for on a cutout of their hand so they could tape them all on a poster board to make a cute little display of things that people were grateful for.
The picture is of what I wrote. I didn’t have space to write too much and didn’t spend too much time thinking about it, but I’d say the 5 things I jotted down are a pretty good representation of what I am thankful for.
I’ll try to elaborate a bit on each thing.
"My parents who continually support me in everything and have done so much to give me opportunities"
I am very very thankful for my parents. They do so much for me and my brothers.
They support me financially so much…..I recklessly spend so much of their hard earned dollars and they still decide to give me more money to spend…it doesn’t really make sense. And not to mention, they are paying for my ridiculously expensive education. That’s not something that everyone gets to say their parents do for them.
Also, they support me morally? Is that the word? Like if I want to do something, they let me do it and cheer me on in it. For example, they let me bike to Canada this summer. What parent does that? hahaha Or like I wanted to play guitar, so they let me pursue that and help made it possible by getting me a teacher (back in 5th grade). The list goes on haha
I also wrote down that they give me a lot of opportunities. I guess what I meant is that they always try to make sure that we get to do things that they wish they could have done, and also they want to make sure our lives are easier than theirs. They always pushed for me and my brothers to expand our horizons to open us as many doors for us as possible. Which is why as kids they had us learn music, and learn art, and learn Chinese. And as I grew up I realized that it was truly a blessing they did that, even though I probably hated it as a kid. haha
"My friends who so unconditionally love and care for me"
I can go on about this one for a while. I think when I was writing this I was thinking of what to write as the explanation for “My friends” and I ended up writing “who so unconditionally love and care for me” because I was thinking of a couple of specific incidents this year where people really showed they cared, but I’m thankful for friends a lot more reasons than just that haha. Friends are what make life colorful and interesting.
And I have so many of them to be thankful for. This year I’ve met many new friends that have been a real blessing to my life.
The two things that I thought of when I was writing on the hand were when Michelle and Serena on two separate occasions really checked up to see how I was doing. Like really drilled me to get me to tell them how I was feeling, which means they really care. Because they had to REALLY try to get me to share and stuff when I really didn’t want to and in the end, it always helped me feel better (I’ve been feeling pretty down pretty often this quarter and have a problem of keeping it to myself haha).
And of course there’s my housemates Harry, Nathan, Koki and NL.
Harry is like a brother…super caring, loving and so jolly all the time. He is amazing at guitar (like really really good, check out his youtube: http://youtu.be/yvZOt2Bgx5Q ) but he is so humble and whenever I play with him I don’t feel threatened by his awesomeness like I do with other people haha. He is totally cool to be really silly and stupid around, but is just as great when things get serious or when you need someone to talk to.
Nathan makes me feel like middle school me again HAHA He is the funnest to be around. Pro skater, pro hacker, pro DJ, pro baller, swag. Whenever we try to study, we never get any studying done, but it’s okay cause it’s always a good time.
Koki is also super fun….him and Nathan together like keep my youth inside hahahaha But Koki is also really caring and generous….like he let me borrow his car once to pick up a friend…and shares his food and helped me pick up furniture in Sac and yeah.. super nice guy and extremely fun to be around…. if you ever came over you’d understand hahaha
NL is a great roommate and I’m extremely thankful that he doesn’t care about all the bikes I leave in the room or the mess I make and my alarms in the morning. And I’m extremely thankful that having him live with everyone else worked out.
And of course there’s also my old friends
I am super super thankful for Jeffrey. He is a great friend in general and is super caring. I’ll never forget the time he biked to seaside himself cause I was too lazy and brought me back a croissant cause I just briefly mentioned I kinda wanted one or thought it’d be nice to get one…. that was soooo nice hahahahah
But I guess I really want to express my gratitude for him for making our FVtoVancouver trip possible. Without him it would not have been possible. I think he came up with the idea, he planned most of it, he navigated most of the way….I feel like I did nothing to make it happen. Hahaha And just on the trip he was great companion to have along the way. We did have our times of being annoyed of each other or having disagreements, but I feel like we worked through all of the bumps in the road (figuratively and literally hahah) very well.
I can’t show my thanks for him enough.
And there’s Kathy of course, and I haven’t seen her in forever. I guess one thing I am thankful for is that she still is my friend even though there is that big distance between us and we don’t talk too much..But also she has always been there and cared for me, usually more than anyone else. I remember this time during high school (I forgot what year exactly, but it was one of those periods of times where I was just sad and depressed all the time) and she saw me smiling and having a good time in the group of friends and I glanced over at her and caught her smiling at me (I think because she saw me happy….that’s what it seemed like at least…… >.>). But yeah, whenever I’m with her it’s always great. Her presence like calms me down or something haha iono I’m super thankful for Kathy.
Jackie and I aren’t really friends anymore, but I’m thankful for the friendship we had. She was the one I talked to the most for a period of time and I learned a lot from her and am really sorry for the way things turned out….but yeah, thankful for the friendship we had..Hope she’s doing alright now
I am also thankful for a lot more people, but those come to mind immediately.
"My brothers who give me guidance"
I feel like I am kind of a mix of my two brothers…I get a lot of my weirdness from Greg and a lot of like life advice(?) from Tong. They are always great to talk to about life and are always there to lend me a helping hand and experience new things with.
They are my obsession…and I guess a quick thing about why I’m thankful for them….
It’s like the perfect stress relief and escape for when you wanna be alone, but it is also really good for socializing and being with people or exploring new places. It’s a thrill but also can be relaxing. yup yup.
"God’s continual presence and Love in my life"
Lots of times very good things happen in my life and I can just attribute it to coincidence, but that would be just wrong I think. I can’t help believe that someone is behind it all….Like one example is how I live where I live now. There were so many things that could have happened (or not happened) that would have prevented me from living with my awesome house. I randomly met them freshman year at a AACF welcome week event. If I hadn’t gone I probably wouldn’t even have met them in the first place. I brought my friend Emily to that AACF event who lived in the same dorming area as all my current housemates and got close to them first. If I hadn’t brought Emily, I wouldn’t have had the foot in the door to get closer to all of them. Their fourth suitemate dropped out of living with them for Sophomore year. If that hadn’t happened I wouldn’t have even had the opportunity to live with them in the first place.
Yeah.. stuff like that makes me feel like God has to be working to make things work out the way they do. And I am very thankful for that. His eye is on the sparrow, and I know he watches over me.
I am very blessed and have so much to be thankful for, so thank you.
I started a new blog a while ago…..but only today started posting on it from my phone as I ate in the Silo…..
It’s all random stupid photos.
Check it out if you like.